"Akhirnya Aku Nikah Juga"

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When I heard Kelly Clarkson's song titled "a moment like this", hmm I can imagine the atmosphere. This is the part of the lyrics:

A moment like this

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Some people search forever for that one special kiss

Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

I hope Im not misunderstand about the meaning (I sometimes make mistakes). So, this tells about a woman that after a looonngg time waiting, akhirnya nikah juga, finally get married. Maybe she said "is it real?" whereas before she thought "should I just forget about married?". Yaaak, honestly.. its little bit related to me, hahaha why? am I waiting all this time? Aih No no no.

Do you ever read a novel (or a novelet?, Im not sure) "Cinta Suci Zahrana" by Kang Abik? I read that in my SMP (or the begin of SMA? I forget). It tells about self and social conflict of a women that getting older but not married yet. At that age, she ought to have children. Yaa in my teen age, I dont know why I perfectly reflect that to my self, haha its like "this will be my story in the future", I really cant understand why I thought about that while my journay still looonngg. Maybe its just because I read it deeply, yeaa thats all. I dont wanna think that. To be honest,

To be honest, although I ever in time that I thought about get married soon (Its not bad actually and yeah some of you maybe know, that its the time that I was in "there", hehe), basically I felt that its still far in the future. Marriage is just something that I dont know WHERE. In fact, I have no boy friends (moreover boyfriend), yes I have boy friends as classmate, collegemate, organizationmate, etc, but no one close to me and I just enjoy with it. Really, I have no problem about it. Buuuut in same time, I also worried. I dont wanna be 'perawan tua', I dont wanna people especially my family talk about my long lasting single, I dont wanna be asked about marriage, in the future, yes I dont wanna that will happen.

I said, basically I felt marriage is something far and even something I dont know "where", I have no idea about it now. But I dont wanna think like that, hahaha I wanna throw away the thought that I will late marriage and I will experience to get my families ask about it or moreover try to look man for me. Oooh its terrible. I try to erase that thought and keep silent. Buuuuut you know what? one day (about 2 years ago), suddenly a sister (she is my kosanmate) said "Iya, orang tu kan suka keliatan ya, ini bakal nikah cepet, ini bakal lama, kalo aku liat, model-model kayak kamu tu yang nikah masih lama deh, nyantai gitu Sus". Weee??? Teteeeh??? I suggest myself to not think like that, but she just give the opposite suggestion -_-. Hoho even other person think the same, how it could be?.

Anyway, its good now, Im neutral and no worry. I believe that marriage has been determined, whether soon or later (especially women, hhe). People said "jodoh itu jorok", can be found anywhere and anytime, so unpredictable. A week later? a mounth? a year? several years? or already meet but havent notice yet? No worry about WHEN, no too young, no too old, we just have the matter of ready or not, well prepared or not, have good reason and goal or not. And remember! no marriage in the name of 'gengsi' or other disgusting reason, huh?. Be ready, one day, a prince will come to you riding a white horse and sing you a song titled "Janji Suci", howek, hhhhh.