"You look busy these days" she asked me because I rescheduled our appointment and then when we met I was a bit late compare to the previous meetings that I used to came quite early. Well, I said no, I just had overlapped schedule.
Since that I realize that for saying "I am busy" is lately so cringe for me. The main reason is because yes in fact I am not busy and also recently I have thought about people that looks busy or even claimed they are busy, do they really busy? or just they couldnt handle well the work, or just their mind that busy. There are people that have a bunch of to do lists they made but what they really done wasnt that much or filled up with procrastination and they still claimed they are busy.
I do sometimes have busy mind. What I meant by busy mind here is not about thinking a lot producing things 😁, but kinda feeling or thought that Oh this work gonna needs a lot of time, I have to focus, I should do this, I should do this and so I couldnt do this, I couldnt do this, refuse to do thing that need just a moment, while in fact you do have time to do other stuff.
I feel more comfortable to not being busy, to not look busy while completely done my works efficiently and so I will also have good quality leisure time :).