Anisa Hasiholan

Jodohnya mas Joko Dewanto...

Ya allaah kok mereka lucu banget sik kakakakkkkk... temen2 guweh

Being Possessive

Seems like I was born with this kind of illness. I thought it would be okay as long as I can hold it and do not hurt anybody. But now I realize that the one who is hurt is my own self.

Currently I forget, how to be mature 😡

Due to my uncontrollable cheeks, belly and passion of eating, I'll go to gym twice a week from now on. (Twice? 😅)

Wake up , Girl!

He never loved you~~ 😅 #afunnyjoke

Untuk Perempuan

Nonton konser Sheila on 7 di youtube. Baru tau ada lagu mereka yang judulnya Untuk Perempuan. Dan kok isinya agak jleb ya. Pengantarnya "Jadi cewek tu jangan genit2. Biar kami, pria, yang memperjuangkanmu". Ya masalahnya, ada ngga? haha. Akhir2 ini guwe ngrasa genit aja. Trus disentil sama lagu ini.

Jangan mengejarnya

Jangan mencarinya

Dia yang 'kan menemukanmu

...

Tidaklah mawar hampiri kumbang

Bukanlah cinta bila kau kejar

Tenanglah tenang

Dia 'kan datang

Susi how are you?

I've been here for almost 7 months. Im sooo grateful. Its a good place, a good job, I have enough money for me and my beloved people, I can still get Indonesian food and having nice people around me is the most thing Im grateful for. I have very supportive Indonesian friends. They help me, we have fun conversation, they keep me stand on my faith. The Korean around me are fully tolerant of what we believe as a muslim and they are nice. Im so lucky. There will never be perfect life but Im so grateful today, thank you Allaah...

Shameful 😿

My first snow

Beberapa hari belakangan aku agak degdegan, liat perkiraan cuaca yg meramalkan akan adanya salju. Haha agak lebay ya. Trus pas pertama kali liat, omg.. rasanya tu kayak lo find out kalo ternyata doi punya rasa yang sama sama lo. Cintamu tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan. Beneran deh, seneeng banget. haha. Tadi pagi (kemarin si, ini udah lewat tengah malam), aku baru sekitar sejam masuk lab, lab yang tanpa jendela jadi kita ngga tau apa yg terjadi diluar. Trus pas mau keluar, dengan perasaan yang biasa2 aja, dari balik pintu ruang sebelah yg transparan, aku liat salju turun..

I was freeze for a little while. I was sooo excited. I can say I almost shed a tear, haha to much? Previously, I wonder with whom I would get my first snow. I wish I could have it with someone, but even though we were in a close distance, It didnt happen. Its okay. It doesnt  lessen the beauty of the snow at all. Kyaaaa...

Its 02:33 AM and its snowing outside there, I wanna be there~~

언제?

Sebuah pertanyaan yg didukung playlist lagunya Rossa dan Yovie&Nuno.. Juga postingan foto beberapa teman di medsos (you know what I mean~~) dan tentunya, keheningan malam..

Jaga Kehormatan Diri

Sekilas nonton 86 (aslinya diidupin aja biar bersuasana.. nggak sepi..). Jleb dengan kata2 mbak polisi yang lagi patroli dan menemukan cewek lagi nongkrong, malem2 dengan pakaian yang kurang pantas.. "Kita ini perempuan, harus jaga kehormatan". T_T

:)

No matter how much you care of someone, sometimes you have to hold it. Since no matter how pure it is.. it could be expressed as something else or at least other people would see that as a mistake, even for whom you care of. When the social value against your sincere kindness.. 

미쳤어?

I think so..

Do it sincerely..

I told you, dear.. every stupid intention would never work as you wish even though its nothing to do with other people.. no one will loss anything you say. Just do everything sincerely and in a normal way, otherwise.. It would works in a silent savage way. Bear it in your mind, Susi..

#lamargue 😅😅

Hidup Efisien ala Masbro

Minggu kemarin.. setrikaan (baju untuk disetrika) gw numpuk banget. Selain baju kotor, gw juga nyuci lumayan banyak baju warisan dari seorang teteh yang akan sangat berguna di hari-hari ini di mana orang-orang termasuk saya akan sangat mencari yang namanya kehangatan (ella timbang bilang musim dingin aja belibet..).. Di situ adalah satu titik di mana sy menyadari.. bagaimana hidup akan begitu efisien jika kita bisa mengamalkan satu kebiasaan: Memakai satu baju untuk seminggu. Yaa at least 5 hari lah ya.. hari kerja. Yang perlu diganti adalah baju bagian dalam saja.. di mana baju dalam tak perlu disetrika. Jadi weh kita cuma perlu setrika satu baju selama seminggu. Mantap jiwa ngga si??

Makan di Restoran India

Udah agak lama si.. lebih dari dua bulan yang lalu keknya. Gw sama anggota lab yang lain makan di sebuah restoran India dalam rangka semacam farewell party buat salah satu anggota lab. Gw and the geng awalnya bingung ini pesen makannya bareng2 apa sendiri2. Oke akhirnya sendiri2 (gw yang disuru nanya dan sesungguhnya gw agak malu karena cuma mau nanya begitu aja kayaknya gw belibet banget) ..

Samsung A5 (2017) dan Secercah Kekecewaan

Akhir bulan lalu guwe beli samsung A5 (2017). Alasannya.. pake hape yang lama suka ribet kalo mau instal2 sesuatu karena memorinya yg cuma dikit (padahal bisa ditambah memory card si), baterenya juga udah agak soak.. cepet abis padahal di sini kalo mau pergi2.. terkonek dengan internet itu mutlak (mungkin harusnya bisa beli powerbank aja, tapi kan agak rempong ya), kamera dan displaynya kurang oke.. kalo butuh dokumentasi eksperimen di lab jadi suka kurang real. Trus waktu itu guwe bakal vacation panjang ke tempat yang indah which is butuh juga buat mengabadikan momen2 indah itu. Guwe udah search tuh hape2 dengan kualitas kamera terbaik. Udah dilist dan hape merk dan seri ini masuk dalam daftar dan harganya lumayan murah dibanding hape yang lain.

CCTV

I often imagine that there are CCTV on every single place I stand.. and so there must be at least one person can see what I did include those stupid things 😁😁.. I'll be sooo embarrassed kalo itu beneran kejadian.. then I'll  garuk tembok jedot2 pala seperti biasa.

But yeah its true that in life, there is an "eye" that always keep seeing on us, even more.. there are "hands" that always take a note of every single thing we did.  And one day we'll see all those notes and get to know whether we'll get a reward or a punishment. Astaghfirullaahal'adziim..

Kena "Karma" Karna Kalap Belanja

Minggu kemarin ada waktu buat main ke salah satu pusat keramaian kota. Banyak bangetlah itu toko2 buat belanja.. segalaa macam. Emang pas berangkat punya beberapa banyangan si PERLU beli apa-apa. Tapi yaa... biasahh cewek.. kadang suka nggak terkontrol. Intinya... agak kalap. Tapi ada aja itu pikiran "ngga papa kan udah tiap hari capek kerja, ngga papa kan murah bukan barang yang mahal, pumpung di sini, ngga papa.. ngga papa..." padahal jauh di lubuk nurani, ada resah "kayaknya aku ngga butuh ini deh.. kayaknya ini ngga terlalu berguna deh.. kayaknya aku berlebihan deh.. aduh ntar kalo aku kena karma gmana coba..."

Beneranlah sampai di rumah, ada beberapa item yang lets say "rusak". Berapa banyak ya?? Hmm malu bilangnya. Intinya mah diingetin lagi (untuk kesekian kalinya), kalo beli2 dipikir bener.. butuh engga, bakal berlebihan engga, ngga boleh greedy. Padahal dulu udah pernah cerita panjang lebar juga soal beginian (tentang "karma" sebagai pengingat). Tapi yaa begitulah manusia.. tempat salah dan lupa.. Astaghfirullaah.. Semoga ngga kejadian lagi... kan sayang duitnya hehe buat beli barang tapi barangnya tidak berfungsi dengan sempurna.

Susi,, what the hell are you doing? trivial but arrrggghhh

#lamargue

Ada temen nunjukin foto hasil mereka bikin donat, trus dikasi hashtag #lamargue. entah kenapa lucu. kkkkkkkkkk

Senyum Simbol Kekuatan

Ceunah.. senyum tu harusnya ngga cuma pas kita seneng. Kalo kita bisa tetep senyum ke orang yang bikin kita dongkol, senyum pas ngga happy ya itu jadi simbol kekuatan. Ya kalo aku sih maunya ya alami menjadi orang yang kuat, ngga baperan, selalu supel dan sumringah tapi da gimana ya naturalnya hati mah dari sononya. Kalo banyak rasa di hati yang jadi cobaan ya itu buat ladang pahala.

Alhamdulillaah.. nasihat dari kawan, sangat membantu akhir2 ini dan pasti akan bermanfaat untuk seterusnya. Tentang tetap tersenyum walaupun ketemu sama orang yang nyebelin. Cobalah tetap tersenyum walau kita ngga happy bahkan dongkol, tunjukin kamu tu orangnya kuat, mau berusaha jadi lebih mature. In shaa allaah jadi pahala juga.

Its OK I like my self #kataKirana

Me, in some moments weeks lately. kkkkkkkk.. Feel ashamed so badly tapi yaa udahlah bodo amat #garuktembokjedot2pala

Source: chatsticker.com

Bahagia kok pake manipulasi

Saya sempat berpikir (2 hari yg lalu), bahagia tu bisa kali ya di manipulasi. Maksudnya bukan karena miris hidupnya ngga bahagia si, ya lebih ke biar mencari alasan agar riang gembira, jadi interaksi sama orang juga jadi enak gitu. Iya kan, kalo kita lagi bahagia riang gembira, ngobrol nyapa orang pasti lebih hangat. Tapi mungkin masalahnya adalah si "manipulasi" itu tadi, karena yang saya maksud adalah ngebayangin sesuatu yang tidak real, kejadian yang kita khayalkan.

Tapi barusan saya sadar, kalo akhirnya benar2 bisa liat kenyataannya (dan kenyataan itu negatif terhadap image/bayangan yg kita bangun), ya sudah jatuhnya kecewa. Hallaaah teori apa sih Sus, ada ada aja, malu sendiri kan kkk

Cinta pada Pandangan Pertama

Dengerin BreakOut di NET. Temanya Love in the First Sight. Kisah cinta di lagu tu indah-indah ya.. hehe.. FYI katanya cewek jarang si yg bakal cinta pada pandangan pertama.

Another use of "kebanyakan cingcong"

Nah kalo sekarang-sekarang, ya masih mirip2 sih sama dulu waktu masih sekolah atau awal2 kuliah yang kalo mau belajar atau ngerjain tugas harus sedia sesajen dulu.. kalo sekarang, kadang mau ngerjain kerjaan kerja (#naonsi) diluar jam kerja juga masih suka beresin ini dulu deh, bikin ini dulu deh. Ya sebenernya ngga papa ngga si, maksudku, bukan jam kerja gitu, itungannya kan itu waktu kita, ya cuma kadang suka jadi kurang efisien aja waktunya kalo sekedar nurutin cincong tadi tanpa ngitung2 timing yang pas.

Yang kerasa banget juga tu kalo orang mau olahraga, haha.. maunya di situ ngga mau di sini, pas jam ini jam itu, pas luang ngga ada kerjaan, kalo udah ini itu. Tapi kalo ini saya ngga terlalu kebanyakan cingcong si, di mana pun dan gmanapun bisa jadi2 aja, asal ngga pas males #tetot. Ya malesnya kalo lagi dapet atau emang capek gitu.. (Atau ya emang males #eeetetep)..

My Precious Night

I always want to enjoy my night.. too precious to only spend it for sleep. But always, I have to sleep at night so I can awake tomorrow morning and fit with the normal people..

I hate bossy words

Honestly, I hate people bossing me around, unless you are really my boss.

If I want someone to do something, I'll always try to make it as an asking for help, make it as a question, or as such a discussion words, something like that. I hate more when people ask me to do something that I obviously know of what I should do. Oh my.. sometimes they dont know my condition and just tell me to do this and that. Come on.. I know my self more than anyone else.. heheh. I have plan in my life.. include "when I should buy a smartphone".

Half awake.. someone said "nitip buang sampah yah".. Hey.. I almost everyday doing that. Really? you came out half awake just to say that? Its like you that usually doing that and now you asking for help. Im sorry.. but I dont like it.

But lately, I wanna know how it feels to use that bossy words haha particularly for the trivial things hehe.. but still uncomfortable, hmm..

Hoo Its called procrastination

I call it "kebanyakan cingcong". I used to experience it often when I was about to study for such an examination. Feel like should have a cup of tea and a bunch of snack, thought about clean the dirty rice cooker, the dishes, the dust over the laptop, arrange new music playlist, etc. Then I realize that I should "just do it, nggak usah kebanyakan cingcong" . 😁

From wikipedia:

It is the practice of doing more pleasurable things in place of less pleasurable ones, or carrying out less urgent tasks instead of more urgent ones, thus putting off impending tasks to a later time. Sometimes,procrastination takes place until the "last minute" before a deadline.

I dont know my name

Who am I?

What I want to do?

What should I do?

I want to be my self, but also fit the social.

I want to stick with my principal but also get respected.

What kind of human being should I become?

What is my name?

In a place where the magic hopefully happens

Iya, katanya juga kita harus mau melakukan apa yang tidak kita sukai sekarang untuk mendapatkan apa yang kita sukai di masa depan.

If you can taste the bitter of doing stuffs outside your comfort zone then you can taste how sweet that magic is.

Ngulik nyari2 segmen2nya dia pas kompetisi dulu. Udah ditonton berapa kali ya.. tetep ngakak nonton laginya. kakakakakkk Sakit perut nahan tawa biar nggak ganggu tetangga..

Being Introvert is just Different

People say Im an introvert. Yes I am. I do not limit myself on that judgment or all the way people named as classification though. I just always want to be a better person, Id like to learn and try to have better characters, better attitudes. Who doesnt want to be perfect? But yeah you do have character. In a long time I believed that characters people called as extrovert is the better one. Introvert is such a lack. But in fact those two are just different. The extroverts have their own way, and so do the introverts.

Need to look back why Im here

Sometimes I need to look back at my past to remind me why Im here now. And it should ends up with being grateful and wholeheartedly doing the best. And I need it again and again.

😢

I coincidentally met an old friend, we had talk for a second. It was only about what we are doing now, a really brief story. I have no idea why I got so emotional, I should hold my tears. Its been a long time but leads nowhere. 

😞

Do you think Im crazy about cleanliness? A big NO. Im crazy about RESPONSIBILITY. Dont you think your laziness will give a hard time to others people? Hati2.. jatuhnya dzalim 😭

My Past

Just wanna come to her time and give that little girl a warm hug. Thank you for being a good kid.

Left Out

Its a combination of possessiveness and an introverted.

OCD? Im not that far

I just comfort with cleanliness,

I just dont want to get infected and sick,

I just wanna make sure I do not make a mistake that can cause a danger for me and all.

So, a friend of mine asked me whether I have OCD or not. I had never heard it before, so she briefly explained to me and then I said "Oh no! Im not that far". I watch American Got Talent, and in short, I got to know that one of the judges has an OCD and then I became curious what actually it is. OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is such a mental health disorder that is, in short, a persistent annoyed feeling/thought of "something wrong" and also persistently behavior to overcome it. Oh just get the full explanation here. 

I took a test whether I likely having OCD or not, its a sort of test but not a diagnose tool. And the result iiiisss.... I scored a total of 20 and it means I most likely suffering from an OCD (because for 12&up score means "likely positive"). Whooo. But I bet Im not. Read out the explanation and I really still far from that.

One day my friend slept over at my room and she had flu. I told her to wear such a flu mask but she refused. I understood cz it would be uncomfortable to use a mask while your nose is clogged. I understood but felt uncomfortable all night long cz I was pretty sure I'll also get flu the next day. And yeah, It was such a hard time having flu in the middle of crowded academic activity. Actually I was mad at her, hhe. The same worry always come when Im with a friend whose having flu. But I try not to, I wanna be easy.

My Temperament Personality _not to be Giving Up though_

Its like I was born as a melancholic. I found it out in my college period when a roommate said Im a melancholic phlegmatic personality. I even didnt know and didnt interested of that opinion. I really had no idea about that 4 personalities (melancholic, phlegmatic, choleric and sanguine), but, by time, people around me started to mention it again and again, and one day I just read the explanation of that 4 personalities. I just be like "Wow", you know as a tend-to-be-logical person (I study engineering btw), I was impressed that there are theories or studies that can explain human personalities, something that you cant see the object, you cant get the conclusion using algebra theories. Yep for the melancholic one, it really speaks to me, I even can named my characters after read the explanation out.

And just now, I took a sort of test at http://personality-testing.info/, its an 0nline test so you can understand the accuracy.

It scored me as mainly melancholic, and yeah I agree its dominated me. But wait.. the second is choleric, wow I thought its phlegmatic instead.  But yeah I mean people can change, so possibly. The most important thing is to always change ourselves to be better person, shouldnt give up on bad characters we naturally have, make a self improvement is a must. Never be bothered of that classification and just be easy.

Let the magic remains magic

I love magic. The ones show that mesmerizing and mind blowing, sometimes jaw-dropping  :).  Mm magic is about trick and art. The best way to enjoy the show is by stay fool, once you reveal the trick you lose the joy. So, stay foolish and let the magic remains magic :)

This one is more than mind blowing, kkkkkkk

Mas ganteng, magician Richard Jones

Im learning English

Why? its cool to can speak English -_-, jk.  As I said before (in the previous article), I realize that its important ( I even said its urgent), its an international language. I told you I live in many years believed that I cant speak English and just believed it. But I changed my mind. I can if I want. And even if I dont want, I must.

I used to be didnt watch movie (or drama), I didnt listen to English music. But now I do. I write articles sometimes in English. I dedicate my Instagram for my English. I follow some native speakers or account that dedicated to learning English. I must write the caption in English no matter what. You know, just to write a short paragraph, I can take up sooo much time. Sometimes when I read again what I have wrote, its like "what I want to say??". At times, I realize that "oh I should use this word/phrase to say what I want to express that time". I feel like want to come back to that article and make correction so people dont notice that I make a mistake. But now, OK let just leave it. Thats your process, Susi (an excuse statement :). Its gonna be a lifetime learning.. yayayaaa.

BTW, although I give much effort to learn English, I still love Javanese and Sundanese. I want my children (in the future) to can speak that languages fluently, I mean it. Also Indonesian, Arabic, and of course English, mm maybe all the vernaculars in Indonesia ^_^, hehe. You can do it my kiddos, fighting!.

Wanna Talk about my First Love

Such a sudden thought. This is really not the time to talk about it but I just want. We worked together for a couple of weeks. He is kind, funny, a smart from my point of view and easy to approach by any kind of people. Ya.. ignoring his lack as human being, simply, he is likeable. He was not my type actually and I had no tendency on him (at first). We worked as colleague, the same as with the others.

The tragedy (??) started after the work was over. I really had no idea why I wanna keep in touch with him sooo badly but had no reason to contact him.  He is the first person I thought about marry with, the only man who made me drop my tears for a man (so far). I cried really not because I wanna be with him but because I hate my self, WHY I have time to think about love or man or something like that in the middle of crowded academic activities. It was bothering, annoying, I didnt want to think of him and all about what person call it as love, but I couldnt. It drove me nuts. I wanted to focus on what I should to.