Me in Kementrian Kebijakan Nasional

Last sunday, we have gathering, seems like closing gathering. Actually this event conducted for all member of Kemenkoan Kebijakan Publik Kabinet KM ITB, 2012-2013 period and yeah the member of others ministry are more than mine. We invited to come at 10.00 am in Jonas Banda. I'm so sure the event would start late so I prefered to finish my agenda, in hurry. Then I went to the place that we have to come. I didnt know the way, I decided to ask to a seller in the edge of road. Ah I didnt understand what they said. They talked about the position, not the way there. OK I asked about the public transportation that can I take. One of them told the blue one, I said thanks. After some step I go one of them shouted me, the green one neng. Hmm which one?. I decided to take the blue one. After some minutes I didnt find the place. I got off in a T-junction (or crossroad? I forget). I saw some polices there. I ask one of them to show me the way. Haha I just needed to turn right and walk for awhile.

I arrived a half until a hour late (from 10.00 am). I saw 3 of 4 members stayed. OK we should wait the others. Hooowwhh I really tollerant for this, yeah because I came late too, hehehe. But oh Allah, 2.5 hours waiting was so exhausting.

Ok guys, my story begin, the above paragraphs just a mukadimah maybe.

In my waiting time, I just kept silent. I really confused what should I say to make unclumsy conversation. Hmm I was not success, mainstream questions!. Owh I'm as the older cant embrace them. I ashamed, really. My silence supported by my bored. Waiting is so boring, right?

This is my problem here. Kementrian Kebijakan Nasional (we often called it Jaknas) is part of Kabinet KM ITB that have to give respond for national issues. So the member must know the nasional issues, can analyze then integrate it with any knowledge or concept then try to propose solutions. Owh I seldom to read newspaper or watch news in TV, how can I know national issues? I'm plegmatis so I difficult to judge for fault. Then I'm poor in public speaking. Hah why you so confident to enroll your self there?

Well, actually I get in to Jaknas just for knowing national issues and maybe some solution that can be proposed. Since in senior high school, I began to think about my country, about my nation. Why we have abundant nature resources but we still in unsufficient live. We should can get more with our wealth. Why there are children that difficult to get good quality education whereas their land is full of expensive mines. Then why it goes for long time, began in 1967 until now and maybe until then.

There are friends that all of them are great in knowledge and analyzing, and of course great public speaking. They have know each other, because their friendship start before I came. I really feel small and Im so strange here. I ashamed to show that I dont know many things about what they talk about. The worst is that I cant be close to them, Im very silent. When others meet look like as family, im not. I remember, one day we have an agenda to have pawai in CFD. Briefly, there are 3 members (include me) come first in a point. We dont talk anything, then, hahahaha they went to get breakfast without just little greeting. Oh how far me to them.

I try to always come to Jaknas agenda, it must because I offer my self to be the member, not by oprec but closerec. Once again, I offer my self. I plotted my time to come to the weekly meeting and other agenda if I can make decision to go there, and I always try to be on time. After a months, I seldom to come because there are agenda in salman. The agenda almost routine so I'm very rare can come to Jaknas. I give priority for salman above another student activity in campus. It impact to the distance between me and Jaknas. Yes, Its right to put the blame on me  that do not give hard effort to be close to them. I realize.

There are younger member in Jaknas. Even just the name, I difficult to know. I ashamed to them, they are more active than me, they are more capable than me and they have good relationship among Jaknas member. In the last of the event (gathering Kemenkoan Kebijakan Publik), I'm little success inmaking conversation with them. I'm happy.

OK! thats me in Kementrian Kebijakan Nasional. I just can help little to execute the programs planned. In Jaknas and also in Jakpub (Kemenkoan Kebijakan Publik), there are many skilled people. They are candidates of  famous person in Indonesia or even in the world, their work are waited by Indonesian society to pick up Indonesia to be great country. Although I'm not well qualified to be Jaknas member, at least I get many learning there. Learning that will give me beneficial in the future, Im sure.[]