"If in fact there is no hell and heaven, are you still worshiping God?"
That way also I often ask my self, if in fact there is no hell and heaven, will I still praying? what kind of person will I be? I never get the answer.
Recently I got another thought. If there is no life after death, no hell nor heaven, well, life is hell unfair. People always say, each person has their own burden, they look fine and happy outside, but certainly have issues annoy their soul inside. Mm I agree yet doubt it happen to all people without exception. I think there are still people that always in a "happy life". Born in a family who have relatively good financial, parents who know how to grow their kids, they have strong support system from family and friends. They grow as physically and mentally healthy person. With good appearance and positive personality, they get good couple, having romantic relationship. Having good education, prosperous life and yeah just no big deals in their life.
On the other side, obviously, you can see people living their life with a lifetime burden. Even for something thats not their responsibility. Lets not speak about them who live in war area, children that crying on their parents dead body nor a manly father that crying bringing his child corpse. I saw a lot of person around me ending their live with a lifetime burden. People who work with their hands a full day for getting money enough for tomorrow's meal, even for the same day. There are children taking care of their siblings and household courses everyday and still get scold even violence from their own parents. There are person that cant fully enjoy their salary for years because they should pay their parents unreasonable debt, or should take the responsibility to pay the living expenses of the whole family, while still should deal with the social life around them.
A couple weeks ago, I saw a vlog showing a person having a luxury house. When I saw his living room, the first thing came to my mind was, why It should be that big and fancy, doesnt it feel empty? He has more than 10 sport cars, IDR billions watches and many other pricey assets. I think "IDR100" of his money could free up my friend's family debt that burden her days even drive her to commit suicide. That "IDR100" is nothing for him, but a huge benefit for my friend.
I had work that I expect could help my family and my life, but God took it away. On the other side, God keep giving chances for persons to raise their number in their bank account while their family has been living well.
See, life is hell unfair.
A couple weeks ago, I saw a vlog showing a person having a luxury house. When I saw his living room, the first thing came to my mind was, why It should be that big and fancy, doesnt it feel empty? He has more than 10 sport cars, IDR billions watches and many other pricey assets. I think "IDR100" of his money could free up my friend's family debt that burden her days even drive her to commit suicide. That "IDR100" is nothing for him, but a huge benefit for my friend.
I had work that I expect could help my family and my life, but God took it away. On the other side, God keep giving chances for persons to raise their number in their bank account while their family has been living well.
See, life is hell unfair.
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